The Tower can be a terrifying card; even just the imagery is alarming, let alone the implications of the card itself. The illustration of a lightning bolt destroying a tower, leaving rubble in its wake, is scary enough. What could be more alarming than losing your stable base to a natural disaster? Well, to most humans, change.
Yes - change, upheaval, awakening, and a metamorphosis is encompassed by this card. I will confidently say that one of the most unnerving things a person must deal with in our lives is change. It's so damn comfortable to stay the same, who would want modify what they're doing if it seems to work? Almost no one! Yet, here we are in quarantine without much of a choice; we must face this change head-on.
It was in April that the Corona virus debacle started to really feel real. On the 3rd, I was finally home in Chicago after being "stuck" in New Orleans for two weeks longer than expected and that was when this "new normal" started to set in for me. I was actually home, stuck inside, and understandably forced to make the most of it/find a new way of living. Being the Capricorn that I am, I immediately started looking for new ways to financially survive and keep some semblance of power over my world.
Obviously, this was not easy. Being thrown into the online world of classes, zoom, and entertainment was, and still is, a struggle. Who could have guessed that in a time when everyone was being fired, laid-off, or given reduced work schedules, no one would want to spend any of their extra money on services that are usually deemed optional? Well, I guessed, but I didn't want to do nothing or give up on teaching until this crisis was over. Offering free classes five times a week was my first idea, giving people the option to donate if they could, and I jumped in head-first.
People were watching, some were donating, and a few more were purchasing readings. It wasn't as much as I had hoped, but more than anything I was having fun. Planning classes, offering services I care about, and getting to talk about subjects that I love without any interruptions was a thrill. Unfortunately, I do not currently possess infinite amounts of energy at my disposal. After a month of classes without much in return, I was exhausted. I have since stopped these classes for now, but in April something amazing had occurred to me. I had successfully worked my butt off in a time of chaos to produce something I could be proud of!
It has never come easy to me, putting energy and effort consistently into a personal project without anyone or any deadlines looming over my head. Usually, the fear of disappointing someone else, the fear of failure, or just plain old anxiety pushes me to work hard. This time, it was passion and positivity that had initiated my motivation. In yoga, Tapas is the heat, the struggle you endure to approach greatness in your body and mind. I have never been one to step into the heat without a shove, and lately I had been putting the blame on an unbalanced Solar Plexus Chakra, which rules your fire. Every day at my altar I would relight a yellow candle and focus on that Chakra, the center of Willpower and Strength. Without noticing, that part of me began to heal, allowing the rest of me to bloom, even during a month ruled by the tower. I believe the reversal of the card was hinting toward that transformation.
When dealing with The Tower, reversed, ask yourself: What is chaotic in my life right now? How can I use that chaotic energy to my advantage, to energize part of my life? Where could I use a transformation right now? Am I putting my energy into the right parts of my life? What parts of my life are unstable and need to be knocked down?