This past month moved fast, knocking me off my feet and stealing my time before I could even process what just happened. The days were full of pushing myself up and out of bed, putting my all into work, and drinking probably way too many lattes. I mean, sweaty-for-no-good-reason too many lattes. Now as I drink my tea and try to reflect on my January 2020, it can easily be summed up by my card of the month, Judgment.
Judgment is less about being petty and seeing what went wrong and more about deciding what is important, what is right, and what is aligned with your personal needs. For me, that included continuing to decide what I want to do for work, what I wanted to consume (both food and media-wise), and how I want to communicate. For work, I ended up choosing a focus on tarot and subbing classes until I build up healthy professional habits. Putting effort into my already-established classes and clients includes future monthly tarot-readings at Tsubo Salon! (Stay tuned for more Tsubo info)
As for consumption, I had to be just a bit honest with myself about unhealthy eating habits; understanding that lifestyle changes are healthier than diets, this will be a slow process of replacing unhealthy foods(mostly my love of donuts) with healthier options (yummy yogurt) and replacing my hobbit-like meal plan of way too much snacking and meals down to a regular 3. I sure do love my food so smaller meals will be the key!Media-wise, I opted for less screen time this month and replaced it with more reading. Not that I didn't watch Netflix, I totally did (Big Mouth & Parks and Recreation binges!), but I capped my TV time at 2 hours or less most days. This led to me finishing five books this month (Follow me on goodreads to see what I'm reading)!
Lastly, I had to be honest about my communication. I have been putting effort into confidence and eloquence with my clients and coworkers while working on kindness and reflection with my loved ones. When I'm out and about it's easy to feel small and overwhelmed by the largeness of the city energy; being mindful that I am worthy to teach and allowing myself to take up space has been essential in building confidence. When I'm with my loved ones on the other hand, I can let the pressures of daily life build up in silence and explode into chaos; consciously spreading love, showing my appreciation, and timely apologies have been extremely helpful in communicating skillfully as a human this month.
The Judgment card is a great tool for self-improvement, giving you space to sit back and observe what you truly need. Take a moment for yourself to reflect, but don't forget to give yourself some love and be forgiving before you beat yourself up.